Life Update: What Am I Even Doing With My Life?

Hi guys! It’s officially been too long since my last blog post. I’m trying so hard to get back into the swing of things now that Kevin is back at work after almost a month off. In case you’re new here and don’t know the story, my husband is a pilot in the Air Force and from January to mid July, we were “deployed” to Columbia, SC. He basically had a desk job and I was stuck in a small apartment with two dogs for a little over 6 months. Not ideal. Not very exciting. But we made it, and now we are so happy to be back in our home in Little Rock and to get on with our lives. It honestly felt like time had just stopped while we were in SC.

What Am I Doing With My Life?

I never thought I’d be here. “Here” being a military wife, without a typical 8-5 job, “working” from home, with no real career plan or job opportunity in sight. I thought that at 27 I would for sure be well on my way to the career (or at least career path) of my dreams. Life is funny like that though. Instead, I genuinely wonder on the daily what I’m even doing with my life. Do you ever have that feeling? Like you have no idea what you’re actually doing or what you’re supposed to be doing? Like, hi, hello God, it would be so great if you’d send me a big neon sign telling me what my purpose is here. Because that’s pretty much where I’ve been the better part of the year haha.

If our 6 months in South Carolina gave me one thing, it’s this: A LOT of time to think. To really evaluate what I want this space to be. Yes, I love sharing my style and connecting with you guys. I love working from home and having the freedom to travel and spend as much time with my hubby as possible. But something has been missing (besides a paycheck lol). I’ve been stuck in this place between feeling like I need a “real” job in order to contribute to our little fam, and refusing to do a job that I hate just for the sake of feeling like I’m contributing. Not to mention that being in the Air Force leaves very little opportunity for actually having a normal career. The emotional and mental struggle has been REAL, okay.

So here’s what I know:

I LOVE fashion and styling.

I want to be creative.

I want my ideas and opinions to matter.

I want to make a difference in people’s lives.

I want to start my own business. A personal styling business, to be more specific.

Woah I can’t believe I just typed that out loud. I want it to be an extension of my blog and an opportunity to take what I love and put it into action so that it really helps others.

I didn’t actually plan on telling you guys that until just now as I’m writing this. I’ve been SO afraid of what people will think. I’ve been even more afraid that I’m going to try and fail. What if I’m not expert enough, what if I can’t figure it out, what if nobody wants what I have to offer, what if I don’t have the “entrepreneurial spirit.” There are so many what if’s that are constantly running through my head. But instead of being afraid of it, I decided I wanted to put it out there. It may take a year, it may take 5 years. But I really feel like I’ve found my thing.

I Want Your Feedback!

I say all of that just to let you all know where things are (hopefully) headed and why I’ve been missing over the last month and a half. Basically just trying to get my life together. I’ll still have the blog and will ideally be able to turn it into my personal brand/business along with styling.

On that note, I’d love to know your thoughts on this. Would you ever consider hiring a personal stylist if money wasn’t an issue? Someone to clean out your closet, pack for your upcoming trip, shop for you, dress you for x, y, z, teach you how to put together an outfit? I would love you to leave your thoughts, questions, comments, etc below or shoot me an email or a direct message on Insta!

About My Outfit

My floral romper is is from Vici and one of my favorite finds of the summer. It can easily be transitioned to fall with a jacket or cardigan and your favorite booties. Wearing a size small. It’s on major sale right now and fully in stock!

I hope you all have a wonderful week, and as always, thanks for stopping by!